Well blog followers, I have been sick for a week now, which has really put a damper on my early morning work outs with Jillian. When you wake up all night coughing, you really don't have the energy to get up at 4:15 am to jump up and down and do lunges. It really feels like the few pounds I have lost or I should say the few inches, have crept back up in that short time frame. And, it really pisses me off.
I know the best way to keep weight off is by losing a little bit at a time and not all at once, which I am okay with. I've really got about 2.5 more months to be bikini ready. You're probably thinking, "You where a bikini?" Yeah, well, I actually look better in a two piece, because a one piece makes me look like a pudgy slug. I can't even wear a tankini without looking ridiculous. My rolls look better separated with a bikini, than all in one. However, I do not go out in public with my bikini, unless it is vacation. That is the nice thing about having your own pool. You can lay out, rolls and hairy legs, and no one will never even know. When you're on vacation, you will never see those people ever again anyway. Bobby and I have been to the beach in California and Cancun and I am usually quite amazed at how many women sport a bikini and REALLY shouldn't be, just like myself. I ask myself, "why am I so self conscious about wearing a bikini in public, they aren't? I fit right in." Do those women care what they look like and just wear the bikini anyway, or do they have the same thoughts I do? I figure that no matter what, I will always be self conscious of my figure. I look back to my days of being super fit and I never thought I was thin enough. I just couldn't get myself below that 103 lb. mark. We give ourselves a goal, but once we reach that goal, it isn't good enough. I look at pictures and can't believe that I actually wanted to be thinner than 103 lbs. I had no ass and no boobs! But, I didn't think of not having any curves. All I thought was getting into the smaller pant size.
So, now I'm embracing my curves. I just need them toned up and cellulite minimized. What happened to the days of Marilyn Monroe, Grace Kelley, Debbie Reynolds, and Lana Turner? I love watching the movies they were in just so I don't have to look at the now emaciated actresses, like Angelina Jolie and Kyra Sedgwick. I want to see a natural body portrayed on screen, not starved and personal trained to mere bones. I'm sure some of you might agree.
I love my curves! If the choice were curvy or emaciated, I'd always pick curvy!!
ReplyDeleteI understand how you feel! I'm always trying to reach my weight goals, and seem to always have things that set me back. I have always have had curves and always will. We spend so much time comparing ourselves to these people who have the time and money to have personal trainers, chefs, etc. It's hard for many of us to be 100 % happy with our bodies. I think a huge part of the problem since I was in Elementry school was that we had the pictures, the teen magazine, and the friend who had something we wished we had. I mean, I put my measurements in online and my bmi comes out obese! I mean really???? When do we reach the point where we are truly happy with our bodies? I find it even more challenging with raising girls and trying to teach them to be happy with themselves, yet I don't take my own advice. Sorry for dragging on....I feel like I created a sub-blog myself :)
ReplyDeleteDEFINITELY agree! Even when I was at my lowest point at the fabulous age of ummm 18 I never looked like that. Some of us have these things we call THIGHS. I don't understand how you can claim to eat food and still look like a twig. I hate to admit this, but when Jake Pavelka dated Vienna (barf) and we got to see a round booty in a bikini (as the girl had a very robust bottom) it was actually a bit relieving. What I don't understand is Kim Kardashian. A girl gifted with that much back side who dresses as if she weren't supposed to have it. None of her outfits seem to complement her gorgeous roundness and sometimes it doesn't even seem they fit her. I swear there's a truck load of money somewhere for someone who can design a pair of jeans or bikini that can make curves look sexy, round, and fitted instead of crammed, constricted, and nauseating. Just a thought on that.
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